Grumbling Mood

Gosh... i am in the grumbling mood recently...

NOT happy with many things and just simply tired an grouchy...

Sometimes I do get really upset

Hello man! U hv stop knowing n understand n love! Hv u notice u hv place us last priority than ur work n never ending reasons n excuses! Trying to b understanding but I really felt upset trying to b understanding! Was it emo? I m not sure! But b I m not happy with u! I feel like shouting n screaming at u but I know I can't cos u will b mad! Sometimes I wish we were always still be in honeymoon period but life is just not that way! We hv kiddo Lucas n baby coming soon! I m fearful that I m no longer ur no 1! B stop n listen n look at me pls! I need some care n love too! Please throw away ur work n books n ur precious sleep!

I m upset n I can't tell y! I m sorry!

Lucas is having a sibling

Officially annoucing Lucas becoming gor gor loh!

I am 4 months and 7 days pregnant and both bei and me are extremely happy. Not sure about the gender yet as baby didnt want to reveal anything to us.... guess didi or meimei as long as baby is healthy, adorable, lovable will do.

Will be sleepless night again and back to the same cycle of waking up every 3 hrly and changing and washing every now and then...

Bei has been the best daddy and hubby, he strive hard to make our lifestyle better.

We have both aged, cross 30 everything seems to break down and more health problem arised. I pray so hard that we will be healthy forever so that we can stay by each other side and grow old together seeing each other "bo gei"...

I pray for more energy to be a supportive wife and be a obedient wife... hahah think at times i complaint and nag too much... haha but no matter what i think bei still loves me alot...

gosh, i am going to be mother of two but i am still behaving like a child myself... haha

Loving Lucas and Bei so much each day!

Thank GOD is Friday

So looking forward for weekendS to come....

Gonna enjoy a FULL DAY fo SAT and SUN with just Ah Bei & Lucas

is 9.07am Friday now, so so so can't wait for the time to end at 6pm so I can see Ah Bei again and fetch my cheeky monkey Lucas home... *Mummy misses U alot*

Officially I dont work on Tues and Thurs now and means I am half tai tai and partial retired from my work *hopefully* but seems like my Tues and Thurs are always so packed and busy and I wonder why.... hahaha...

I wish I don't have to work anymore and I can stay home to see Lucas and do my diaper cake business! My babylicious diaper cake business has kick start since Lucas was born but till date I have only sold ard 15 diaper cakes and is all selling to close friends SO can't really earn much from there... haha... but i still enjoy every single cake i created from Diaper and babies clothing... haiz, hoepfully I can set up a shop just doing such handy craft!

Bei, when can my dream come true?

Hahaha.... seems far and blur but never I will wait....

I WANT TO BE.....

SAHM with no worries and always HAPPY

I wanna watch lucas grow up every single second....
I wanna put him to bed everytime he feels sleepy....
I wanna be the first to comfort him when he crys....
I want LUCAS to be always by my side....
I don't want to see his unhappy face when i send him to nanny every morning....
I wish everyday was weekends and Weekdays never comes.....
NOW that I am in office I am missing him badly....

BUT not now or not any time soon....

SO

I am counting every single day/hour/minutes/seconds of blessings that I have Lucas and Ah bei in my life.... for now I know and I thank GOD that they are healthy and HAPPY with me.....

GOD take away my envious heart, teach me to be CONTENDED and be thankful....and DRAW me CLOSER to YOU!

Counting Blessings and Worries...

This is for my Ah Bei....

如果你有吃穿住，你已比世上75%的人富有。如果你有存款，钱包有现金，还有小零钱，你已是世上最富有的8%了。如果你早上起床，没病没灾，你已经比活不过这周的100万人幸福多了。如果你从没经历战乱、牢狱、酷刑、饥荒，你比正身处其中的5亿人幸福多了。我们在生活中大可少一些抱怨了。

Turning another year older in 2011 and i have live 1/3 of my life away already... ageing makes me feel alittle scare of pre mature death.... there is so much "what if"...
I have not settle so much of my life yet and what if something happens and there is no more sally! What will happen to my ah bei and Lucas and momo?

Was talking to ah bei one day about pre mature death...
Sal: b, will u re marry again if i am gone?
Ah Bei: NO
Sal: I think u pls re marry cos I think u need companionship.... but pls find someone who love u and lucas and is willing to be with u for bitter or sweet...
Ah bei: I say NO to marriage but didnt say i wont look for another or MANY other women ma... where got no companion.... haahaa...
Sal: @#*& u think u look like "Liu De Hua" huh! u no money plus u got Lucas who wants u?!?!
Ah Bei: U leh? Will u remarry?
Sal: Hmmm... I think I will but again maybe not cos what if the man dun like Lucas... Real parents love is unconditional but a step dad wont love lucas 100%... haiz... pls dun die on me 1st... we die together ok... but LUCAS how? like that cannot die... must stay for him... Haahaha

SIAO i think too much already

OFFICALLY I only work on MONDAY, WED and FRIDAY... the rest of the day is LUCAS day!

Hungry Vs FAT

hahaha.... I am a FAT SHORT PENGUIN!

SO WHAT?

Have been hungry almost everytime but cant eat much when comes to meal time... wonder if there is a big worm inside me?

slimming down Vs Eat and be FAT?

I rather EAT.... hahaha....

Bei says I am old liao and not attractive liao.... THAT's SAD cos I just want to be pretty in just his eyes anyone else says i am old, ugly or fat or horrible is perfectly fine for me cos I dont need them to like me... hahaha... BUT coming from bei I am UPSET :(

Bei says he is joking but he always look at young slim sexy char bos leh!

Gave birth liao can hv excuse to be ugly meh? I dun think so.... but is rather difficult stay pretty with no effort put in.... with Lucas crying while I doll up myself is not easy.... so at times i gave up being pretty (ehh... cannot use pretty, say pretty i want to vomit myself).... haha... just for Lucas sake... SO bei pls just pretend that I am always your MOST pretty woman in ur life and every other day okie....

Okie u can see Charbos but not giving comments and comparing them with me okie... they are young and not married so not fair to compare OKIE....

Bei still look appealing and sexy to me everyday and he is my hero and my life and my everything....

Bei, pls stay healthy and sexy just for me and Lucas okie...

Love u bei and Lucas and Snowball

Thank God everyday for hving bei and lucas healthy and happy :)

Friends that make me LAUGH

I so love my gal fren blog... when I feel lousy her blog NEVER FAILS to make me LAUGH OUT LOUD.... she can really express out her feelings with words and XXX at times.. no is all the time very XXX... hahaha... that's my fren CYNTHIA SIAO CHAR BOS

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She wrote:

"No I'm not okay, I feel like shit today and the world sucks bad. Everyone around me sucks. In fact, I feel like a freaking failure in life and I intend to go drown myself in a baby pool today. If I don't drown, maybe I shall go light myself on fire over a bbq pit."
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So is not mad or depress just freaking irritated and dissapointed only.... Hahaha that's my mad friend that makes me LAUGH

Xiaxue's Blog

She is really funny, just cant stop laughing about what she writes.....

hahaha

www.xiaxue.blogspot.com

take sometime to read what she writes.... will cheer u up :)

The corporate world

Corporate world is the real world

Come on' face the fact baby!

This is what I always tell bei....

the world you are in now is the real world....

ur superior will sweet talk you if u r a good worker...

ur superior will complaint to you about the bosses....

BUT

all superior are just 2 face people by choice or without....

they are just the sandwich tier workers stuck in btw bosses and subordinates....

they will be giving you promises about pay raise and bonus...

when they face the real boss they will be giving the head start how to cut cost and lower your salary....

HAHAHA....

Welcome to the real world baby!

Being in the corporate world for my pass 10years (wah, shit i am damm so old oredy!) I have seen and experience good and bad superior and bosses.... we just have to wear fake mask to work if you dont like your job or ur bosses! Hahaha...

Was chatting with someone from the management level earlier and she was talking about her subordinates using up all her annual leave and MCs... She asks " shld I get her to leave or let her stay till CNY?" is a tough answer actually.... she is old and helpless and she needs the money to maintain her family yet she is not an efficient worker.... if the company keeps her is purly for compassionate reason but then again haiz....

CONCLUSION:

HAIZ, I wish i can be a tai tai soon and stay home be a good houseFLY and good Milk mummy....

I promise to do all the housework...

iron all bei clothes....

provide XXX for bei... Hahaha...

cook for family....

milk for Lucas....

and importantly stay pretty and chio looking for ah bei....

Aunty?? Ehh... i am not sure i am or not BUT i am putting effort still to doll up myself.... so maybe not lah hor???